Unexpected Birthday Gift

This post is dedicated to my (random) thought that has been rounded in my mind since a few days ago.

Anyway, before we go on, I’d like to congratulate myself for turning to 22 years old.

It is the most beautiful yet odd birthday that I've ever celebrated.

Here’s the reason. First of all, this year, I only spending my birthday celebration with my family and my closest friends.

Secondly, this year is quite rough for me. There have been a lot of things happened in a year, from 2017 - 2018 which successfully transformed me into 'the new me', as I standing now. Through ups and downs, I've passed many moments that build my perspective of seeing the true meaning of life as a human being: "Acceptance, Forgiveness, and Letting go."

• I accept the state of being 'alone' as a reminder for me to enjoy and explore myself more than before. Well, it's!

• I am forgiving everyone who has been hurt me; Also, I'm asking for forgiveness to whoever have been hurt by me; I am truly sorry.

• I let go anything that doesn't belong to me anymore. Why do I have to keep on holding something that makes me feel alone, unworthy, and undesirable?

I feel thankful for everything I’ve been through. I’m surviving, growing, glowing, and learning.

Despite all the beautiful things that I got on my birthday, I received something unusual which made me speechless, a handmade gift.

Even though this is not the first time I got 'this-kind-of-gift', and probably he also has made this kind of gift for others too... but still, I appreciate the way how he created it, sent it to my email, and talked about it.

The gift is quite simple but special. It’s 10 lists of songs specially crafted for me. He added the explanations what is the meaning of each song for me, according to his perspective for sure. At least, I know that he doesn’t randomly pick these songs, whic means he really thought about this list before sending it to me. I truly appreciate his effort.

Other than that, I also received other gifts from my family and my friends, but the most unexpected one was from him. To be honest, I didn’t expect I would get this kind of gift (again) this year since I’ever got mixtape before. However, I still feel warm whenever received handmade gift, even though I got it from different person, in different ways, different time.

Thanks to you for making my birthday feels special :)

Happy birthday to me, anyway!

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